*SIGH*

Bad day yet okay at the same time, I hate those. Like I really hate them. It starts out terrible, I try to be kind and get up early so I can do a chore in stead of walking away from it like normal and my dad is completely ungrateful and a jerk. So he tells me to do it later so I then have to cut my plans with my friends short. Wonderful.

So I hang out with my friends, great that helps my mood some, yet I am being a complete asshole which doesn't help my other friends mood who apparently was having a total shit day and not telling me. I feel like everytime I have a crummy day, so does he. It happens so often, I am almost having trouble holding back mean remarks about things and I feel like one of these days I am going to have a God awful day and something terrible is going to slip and cause chaos and I am going to want to lay down on the railroad tracks in front of my house.

Is it so bad that I just want someone to help me and making me feel better on one, just ONE bad day instead of me helping someone on their bad day while I am having a bad day.

I am basically scared to show or say anything bad about how my day is going in fear that the other person is like me and wants to have someone comfort them on their bad day instead of them helping someone on a bad day of their own.

When I say all this, I don't mean I am going to stop supporting and comforting them, not at all what I am trying to get at. What I am trying to get at is that I am worried that I am like a time bomb and one of these days I am going to blow up unexpectadly and it will be all my fault and job to fix everything I broke.

I really need to relax some.

Just Another Person.

I'm bad at titles for blogs..

So far today I have been studying and practicing french horn. Also I have been working on sewing, which seems to be going well, making lots of progress, though as much as I love ribbons, I SUCK at sewing with them. Later though two of my friends came over, one of which just came back after a month of being gone, so it was good seeing him again. We watched "To Save a Life," which is an amazing movie. Although it is a Christian movie, but don't be too closed minded on that! It is a great movie.

Just Another Person

Well...

Basically today was lazy, most of it was spent sewing something I am working on. I will not reveal what until I am done and only if it comes out actually decent.

My friend came back from a summer MIT program deally, was good to see her.

Then Later I went out with friends and just sort of chilled.

Was a slow, lazy, chill day. But in a good way.

Just Another Person.

Hmmm..

I am really bad at this.. Today is August 1st, and I have wrote nothing of my summer. The last time I wrote was the last day of school!

It's no mystery now as to why I have ZERO followers.

So this is my last month of this summer, then I start school again! YAY! Well this coming year looks to be a lot easier than the last 3.

What has happened in my summer:

Well I found out I got into concert band.

I did NOT get a job.. So It's really hard to save my money up for a Car, or a FRENCH HORN.. You know not having the instrument I plan to attempt to major with/on. Is kind of an issue, don't you think?

What else..

My friend still hates me, it's rather amusing how immature and unreasonable she is being, like come on? She blabs to my friends sister about some crap about that friend -She also told me about too- but being the trustworthy friend I am, I said nothing -but she thinks otherwise- because obviously the sister said nothing to her sister and me being best friends with her for what? 8 years and always being there for her means: I can not be trusted. Yeah.. Just a little bit upsetting. Oh well, nothing I can do about it. Quite literally.

August is going to be a PACKED month, like no joke:

for 1 week I am off on a trip with my family,

the next week i have marching band + State fair,

then I go on another trip with my mom.

Don't get me wrong, I am going to have a blast and looking forward to everthing. I am just a little worried with how fast the summer is going and how much I still have to do with the small amount of time left.

Example: ACT, complete embarrassment. I am not even going to post my score; it's so embarrassing. I'm not stupid or anything, I mean I am smart.. But that test was just a complete fail.

I still need to take my drivers test. Permit is about to expire.

Master the french horn

Sell my single horn to get money (I need a double horn)

When marching band comes around: Memorize 3 songs and the charts to go along with it.

Thats just some of the stuff.

Goodness, I am tired just thinking of it all... or it could just be the fact that it is 4:25am..

Whoopsies.. Good night all those who are following this.. aka NOONE.

Just Another Person.

Finally!

I'm in my last class of this school year, just finished my last final test. Thank God its all done! I can relax some! .. Well maybe not too much, time to find a job and get some cash, gotta buy a new computer, car, pay for next school year's band trip, and just some pocket money so I don't have to keep asking parents for money all the time! But thats a lot to pay for, so I might not get too much pocket money.. Oh well.
This year has had its good and ups. But who's doesn't? I am just glad for it to all be done. Now i can hang out with friends, possibly go on a small road trip with the family, have a legit good nights sleep with out the worry of homework.
This will be a good summer.

Just Another Person

Waste of time

Right now, i am being a typical teenager. I am procrastinating. Funny thing! I kept telling myself I would do it tomorrow. Well now today is that final tomorrow! Oh well, got to learn to accept the choices you make. If you don't like them. Then change, but otherwise just accept them. Today is a Thursday and on Thursdays I have horn lessons. I checked the messages to make sure my teacher did not leave a message. So I went t horn lessons. Sat for five minutes over my usual time waiting and went back to check if he was there, and he was not! So I left and had to wait for my parents to come pick me up. Theres a waste of time when I could have been working on my other work I procrastinated on. Don't you love to waste your time? I am so ready for school to be done, one more week and then I get to start looking for a job! Wouldn't want to slack off too much! It's time to start getting more responsible anyways. I got to start getting ready for college and all that. Lots to do this summer, and that does not include relaxing.

Just Another Person

My first blog

Well, hey there all you people out there.. probably not reading this because well, I just made this sight and no one knows about it because I have not told anyone. For some reason I have a goal to at least have one follower. I don't know why I decided to write a blog. Maybe to let people know they are not alone? But everyone should know they are not alone, because well.. unless you are locked up inside, you see people! and lots of them. Unless a nuclear holocaust happens, I can assure you, no one is alone. Though now I am asking myself the question of ""This is my first blog" ... "shouldn't I be telling everyone about myself instead of rambling on about how we are not alone?"" Well, I guess I want it to be like this, you get to know me along the way as does everyone that knows me. It's only fair.

And thats how I am going to end my first blog.

Just Another Person