*SIGH*

Bad day yet okay at the same time, I hate those. Like I really hate them. It starts out terrible, I try to be kind and get up early so I can do a chore in stead of walking away from it like normal and my dad is completely ungrateful and a jerk. So he tells me to do it later so I then have to cut my plans with my friends short. Wonderful.

So I hang out with my friends, great that helps my mood some, yet I am being a complete asshole which doesn't help my other friends mood who apparently was having a total shit day and not telling me. I feel like everytime I have a crummy day, so does he. It happens so often, I am almost having trouble holding back mean remarks about things and I feel like one of these days I am going to have a God awful day and something terrible is going to slip and cause chaos and I am going to want to lay down on the railroad tracks in front of my house.

Is it so bad that I just want someone to help me and making me feel better on one, just ONE bad day instead of me helping someone on their bad day while I am having a bad day.

I am basically scared to show or say anything bad about how my day is going in fear that the other person is like me and wants to have someone comfort them on their bad day instead of them helping someone on a bad day of their own.

When I say all this, I don't mean I am going to stop supporting and comforting them, not at all what I am trying to get at. What I am trying to get at is that I am worried that I am like a time bomb and one of these days I am going to blow up unexpectadly and it will be all my fault and job to fix everything I broke.

I really need to relax some.

Just Another Person.